★ changed my layout into something different. I know I’ve been using mostly neutral colors the past few months so I decided to use something with more ‘life’ in my LJ. what do you think? is it better? can I actually live with it for at least half a year or based on my history of changing layouts, when will I change this again? later? tomorrow? the day after? next week? or next month. for sure, we won’t know. I’ve learned something today. rather than learned, valued more. we won’t know what we will have unless we move forward. I value that thought. I’ve always thought of how I will do if I did this and that and then I realize, why don’t I do it? but even after learning that value, I still can’t do anything. I’m a huge coward. people always see me as brave, those around me always see me as a brave person. I sometimes bluff and I sometimes exaggerate. but when it comes to it, I’m still one huge coward, someone who thinks, weighs the pros and cons before acting and when I do act, it’s always too late. I want to be more spontaneous, not thinking too much. I want to be everything I want to be and nothing at the same time. What shall I choose?