Under Construction

Hi everyone! I realize that my journal is practically dead now but I still cling to my JE fandom, hoping that I will come back to it soon. As it is, I'm hardly in a computer (aside from work), my writing skills deteriorated from bad to abyssmal and I just have no time anymore. Having graduated from my Master's, I went on to work as an Audiologist in a known hearing aid center here in the Philippines.

I do hope I can get back to writing, I haven't even updated that beauty blog since 2014 (gasp!) I have been really into makeup and skincare tho so I might get around to doing that but the urge to write fanfiction just went down the drain. :( My ship just totally docked and never sailed again so (sigh) I'll keep all my fanfiction open for everyone to peruse (I do read them every once in a while) when some of you miss NishiKato but otherwise, unfinished fanfiction will be that, unfinished. My years, writing fanfiction was one of the most memorable ones, it kept me from going crazy in college and I will hold it dear for the coming years. I am officially closing this chapter of my life and move on.

I will definitely keep the journal, maybe update it someday but for now, this is it. 

Title: Like a Child
Author: fangirlism_era
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I make no claim on the characters in this story.
Pairing: Kato Shigeaki/Nishikido Ryo
Summary: Snippets in the story of Ryo and Shige.
Author's Notes: This story is based on Kim Dong Ryul's Like a Child.

( For being here by my side, for dreaming with me... )

★ changed my layout into something different. I know I’ve been using mostly neutral colors the past few months so I decided to use something with more ‘life’ in my LJ. what do you think? is it better? can I actually live with it for at least half a year or based on my history of changing layouts, when will I change this again? later? tomorrow? the day after? next week? or next month. for sure, we won’t know. I’ve learned something today. rather than learned, valued more. we won’t know what we will have unless we move forward. I value that thought. I’ve always thought of how I will do if I did this and that and then I realize, why don’t I do it? but even after learning that value, I still can’t do anything. I’m a huge coward. people always see me as brave, those around me always see me as a brave person. I sometimes bluff and I sometimes exaggerate. but when it comes to it, I’m still one huge coward, someone who thinks, weighs the pros and cons before acting and when I do act, it’s always too late. I want to be more spontaneous, not thinking too much. I want to be everything I want to be and nothing at the same time. What shall I choose?

★ together with otoke1315, juuten, and eunseung8693, I made a community. it’s called nx_gamso we can post out fic challenges. the fandom ranges from JE to KPOP so please join us~

i would have normally been back right after the first day of school blabbing about what happened in PE and duty but wth, i got sick. with what? it's a 7 letter word called MEASLES that kinda got to me. i've been antsy since, say tuesday night. i wrote in my last entry that i was not feeling well because of fever and my anemia. yes, i was in FEVER LIMBO (read: my temp was alternating from 37.5-37.6 like my body was trying to decide if it wants a fever or not.) okay, so i drank medicine so i could go to school the next day. then came wednesday, i woke up at 5:00 am, went to PE, went to my building then realized that i was wearing a wrong uniform, went home, changed, went back to school. duty starts at 1pm so i had much to kill. so the professors had a meeting, yay! duty started at 3:30pm T__T at 12-ish, i met up with my groupmates and they said that i was red and hot. i know i had a fever, i know that i should prolly go home but i didn't. so when i got home, i was burning. i even commuted home so the whole time in the jeepney, i could feel my face burning because it was so hot. anyway, when i got home, i ate, then went to sleep. srsly, it was completely anti-climactic. the next day, i didn't go to school because i had a higher fever and i saw spots. T__T it was measles. :( i've been absent for 3 days now.

 Was only able to post nao. [Note to Self: Update everyday.]

( Here! Here! <333 )

HAPPY 7^TH ANNIVERSARY,
MY DEARS!

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YESUNG!

 it's been a while since i last posted and unfortunately, i'm not here bearing good news.

everyone, or almost everyone would have heard of the hostage-taking in the philippines. i came home today with the news already all over the television. i was flabbergasted, as these things don't usually happen around here. So yeah, i came home with the news, the hostage-taking already been going on for a number of hours and i know that everyone of the filipinos and the family of the hostages are anxious of what the outcome will be. at first, i tried to go one through all my normal routines being facebook-ing, dancing and all those crap. as i was about to take a bath, i saw my mom watching the whole ordeal and i couldn't help but be curious. so i stayed and watched for a while and realized that this isn't something i can ignore. it's happening in manila, somewhere near (kinda) our school and it involved a former police officer and a whole lot of stupid present police officers and SWAT team. i stayed more, lied down on my brother's bed and started shouting at the television. it was something stupid, a former police officer couldn't get over how he lost his job and then decided that he'll take foreigners as hostages. if you ask me, COMPLETE BULLSHIT. he was a police officer and he was trained to protect the citizens and their visitors. even though he was fired, he should have kept those values in him.

anyway, they were able to infiltrate the bus, the hostage-taker is dead and everything is done, right? WRONG. the moment they announced that the former officer is dead, PEOPLE, CITIZENS flocked over the bus. they completely, fucking ignored the fact that the police just killed the hostage-taker and that they still have to completely make sure everything's safe. but FUCKING curious people just went ahead and lost all their common sense and just decided to go to the bus to see what's happening. and it's raining fucking hard. i know i should be blaming the police for lack of crowd control and all that crap but it seems like common sense is hard to come by nowadays. i don't know why they approached the bus immediately, i don't know why they couldn't have stopped and thought of what was wise to do before approaching the fucking bus that was filled and is still filled with tear gas. it just angered me that not many people think first before they act. :|

this has been a rant. i shall be back when i've cooled down properly.

i'm keeping this post completely public.